TATri Devotee: Sometimes my mind tells me that all this does not make sense ... I understand that I will never be able to understand the mysteries of the universe/s, but the fact that we are all here does not cease to seem like a perverse game.  

It is what I have felt for a long time, it is evident that I have not found the way around yet! 

MATAJI: It's a wicked game my love! 
That is definitely it. 
For the mind it is a wicked game! 
Because for the cosmos God, whatever is beyond this illusion, it does not care about your beliefs, the beliefs (believing to be nobody's) but what you learned by walking and changing the path with your feeling and step... a day faster, another slower... a flatter day... another deeper or shallow... and we only serve him physically and mentally as long as this present Mind body serves its purpose. When it is not: 
"It discards" us as mind body and goes in search of another mind body and a new reality corresponding to this new mind body ... 
That occurs, Until the experience of the individual spirit can live nothing but this certainty and it no longer allows itself to be held back by the belief of being of the mind, but continues on looking at nothing more than the certainty of the universal spirit of which we are. Particles, and that is guiding us FROM THE INSIDE ALWAYS! 

TATri Devotee: Who is it that learns? 
The spirit? You're not supposed to learn anything... 

MATAJI: The spirit gains strength through all the Experiences that go to the individual samskaras and then to the universal! 
And in each birth he has more energy of influence against the choices of the mind. 
The mind is constantly choosing between at least Two! 
The spirit only see A possibility! 
That is why I say: doubt is mental, the certainty of the spirit. The more experiences , the more certainty! 
Where certainty dwells: There is no doubt! 

TATri Devotee: Well, the outlook is depressing in itself... I'm going to have to live millions lives more here, to ‘experience’... ha! 

MATAJI: No my love! 
You are already walking with me! 
The next life you will no longer need Guru or Satguru outside because you will contemplate this certainty! 
And it is important that you can feel that now. The certainty in the feeling of my words. Since they come out of your heart and nothing else passes through my mouth! 
I feel the strength of your spirit. But your mind still imprisons it with your beliefs of good bad and doer. This must be observed deeply, without allowing your mind to continue encapsulating you solely on a whim! You have everything to live the freedom of Being, Being beyond form! This is what I'm here for! It would not need to be! I am! 
Sincerely observe my love! 
Trust because if you are life here and now, it means that you are on the path. 

TATri Devotee: Yes. Believe me, I put my whole good will, I have returned to the advaita vedanta that speaks of all this, of unlearning and removing beliefs... 
I'm going to keep watching. 

MATAJI: Not my love! That is TATri! 
There are some similar things but it is not the same! TATri came to Complement what is already done! And when it complements it: IT RESIGNIFIES IT! 
Out there, rather than believing “to put good will”, you should be open to re-signifying the path traveled here and now! 
Nothing I am talking about is PERSONAL! Or with attempt to convince no mind! Either you open up or not! And that is for your realization that is individual! Then it can REALLY be supplemented with who you really are! Meanwhile you will be in this like this my love! 
Wanting to be free from this illusion that is there for you to free yourself if you really live it as sacred! 
I suggest that you read what I wrote you as many times as you can until your mind does not argue! 
You will see 
I do not doubt! 
And that's why I am! 

TATri Devotee: It is not my intention to confront, beloved. I simply expressed what I think I feel. I will read this as many times as I can. It is not about understanding with the mind. I know it happens the other way. 

MATAJI: Love hahahah ... that is Me, I am your Guruji until then and I do not feel that you confront me but clearly your Ego is confusing you! 
He does that! 
Read it! 😌✨ I love you and I will not please your mind, precisely because of that! 
Because my duty is in front of the liberation of your spirit that is eternal! Not in front of your limited mind! 
Stay calm! Beyond that I do not go through life bragging: but I can see and feel beyond all that is apparent to the mind! 
Your spirit would never confront me! 
Only feel! 

TATri Devotee: I will do so, my GurujiMa. I'm going to read it over and over again. 
I'm going to print it on paper. 

MATAJI: yes my love stay calm. 
Sometimes, inhabiting a body mind and everything that has a history that can confuse us and that is natural Just breathe, see life that chooses you as perfection for your spirit and: Feel my love! 
Everything will be fine. In fact everything is fine! 😘❣